sometimes i feel suffocated at home, with two strangers...

they rent one of the bedrooms..

actually, i'm pissed off..

yelah..senang2 je diorang dapat tinggal kat uma aku..

pasal aper?

pasal...mak aku tuu kesian kan dier..

dia kan pregnant..

days after days.. her stomach is getting bigger..

it's gonna due in 2 months time i guess...

beh lepas tu aper?

nak suroh mak aku jaga her newborn child ke?

kalau dier nak.. cakap ngn dier suroh bayar lebih ah!!

350 ketol per month..

is dat enough??

i don't think so ah...

pikir eh..

nak kena bayar bill electric . bill air . makan ni smuer...

tak cukup sak...

i never talk to her at all!

what for??

nothing to talk about..

sometimes, i'm thinking where i'm standing in my family?

made decision without discussing with me n my bro..

tau tau je dier nak sewa bilik..

wakao !

dengan strangers tu kat rumah..

aku takder privacy langsung!!

nak bebual ngn kawan kat telefon pon tak senang..

takot2 dier pasang telinga..

beh nanti sampai kan kat mak aku..

datz y 1 hari tu aku turun bawah ngn laptop..

aku pon call mak aku to inform her la..

aku yang kena kena tengking..

mak aku ingat kan aku lepak ngn kawan aku...

padahal aku sorang je sak...

i'm so upset coz to me, my mom don't trust me at all..

ader je perkara negative yang dia pikirkan...

haiz....sampai biler nak macam ni pon aku tak tau...

kadang2...aku macam nak langgar je!

BUT i still think of her & i still respect her as a mother..